Collapse

I prefer the wave function before it collapses. One could run simulations to predict the possible outcomes, explore the ramifications. Once the measurement is made, it cant go back to the indeterminate state.

Affair

It's like drawing
where the pavement meets the grass
from the balcony
its not hard
coming up to meet me

you are alien
surrounding me
I breathe you in
choking
keep my calm

a splayed branch
twisting up and through
guts spill out my back
an illusion of choice

force of tension orthogonal
to confusion, resolve
seen you in dreams
reaching out in flashes
dancing light, cavern walls

I am no more me than you
or I
Pass the baton

Trashed

You know when there is a really nasty, full of broken shit house in a movie or tv show (usually a wretched hive of scum and/or villainy)? Do they pay people to trash the house? Can I have that job?

Dream

Last night I had a dream that I was in New Hampshire. I was also going to move there soon but I had to get a job in DC first. Also moving to NH involved sailing on a ship. I was worried I wouldn't be able to get my bike there.

Today, in addition to freaking out about job interviews I looked at grad schools online and freaked out about those as well. Then I bought some cheese. I didn't eat any, but I think the act of purchasing the cheese and knowing that its there makes me feel better.

I know very little about working retail, but I think I know enough that I don't want to do it for the rest of my life. Maybe I should go back to school. Like undergrad. Maybe just a few biology courses. Why didn't I do that before?

Need to:
Get Job
Get Apartment
Get Life
Transcend

Looking Back

Searching for a job and filling information about my previous employers has shoveled up more employment related memories than I thought I had. Here is a list of some of my previous jobs, listed in approximate chronological order and labeled with their most memorable tasks:

- Warming House Sitter
- Football Field Sitter
- Softball Field Sitter
- Computer Takaparter, Putterbacktogetherer and Starter Uper
- Can Crushing Machine Operator
- Pool Nightwatchman
- Mail Getter
- Bucket Filler
- Light Bulb Changer and Stealth Sleeper
- Column Runner
- Computational Chemistry Homework Doer

About three quarters of my jobs have involved unlocking a room or building and then sitting in it.

A Bit of a Change

I didn't procrastinate today. Or yesterday for that matter. I've been in DC looking at apartments and applying for jobs. I think the new situation has disoriented me and distracted me from my mission. I'll have to get back on the procrastination jet as soon as I can.

Uh Oh

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